I am on a journey this year of being accountable for my progress that I am making towards my goals. This is an incredible experience and certainly not what I expected. I just thought this would plot my progress forward, this journey has taught me so much about me, things that I never really knew, but during this experience I have grown and learned an awful lot, too and not in the areas that I envisaged in the beginning. This journey is taking me down a path, the right path; there are obstacles in the way but I am fighting through them and at last, I feel that I am coming out the other side, heading towards my goals and my dreams.
Looking Back But Moving Forward
I am learning that to move forward I need to see where I have been, without this information I can’t make plans or know that it is the right path for me. This is where I am the least comfortable, I dislike looking at the path I have taken and it is difficult to work with this to ensure that I am moving forward.
I need to spend more time on the research and seeing what is working and to use this information as I start to move forward. This is part of the plan for next month, learning how to look at the past and predict the future and the areas that make the most sense in focusing on.
To do all this, I need to work ahead and this will give me the time to do the behind-the-scene work that needs to happen for this journey to continue forward.
The Problems I Face
It is not easy to move forward in life and business, especially when you have spent your whole life thinking you are not good enough. I have spent my whole life comparing my life to someone else’s and thinking that I don’t do things right, because it isn’t perfect. I wanted that perfection in everything I did and I just felt it was never good enough, someone else’s home, family, finances even lifestyle was always better than mine. It wasn’t as though I felt sorry for myself, I felt that I wasn’t being good enough and that is very difficult to live through, constantly feeling that you are letting everyone around you down, that you are not doing it right.
Because of these feelings I have made myself fail on more than one occasion, I didn’t want to move forward with my life and it was easier to let that option go rather than continue on the path. I want to change this, I want to fight myself and feel that I am good enough to do anything I choose. I chose this life, this path of discovery and I am finally heading towards the goals and desires that I have, without being afraid of me and learning who I am through this process. I know I am headstrong for other people; I just need to do that for me too.
Therefore, moving forward for this coming month I am not going to let myself get in the way of my goals. I am putting those to the forefront of my plans and I am actively heading straight for the ones that I keep putting off and not letting procrastination in at all.
What Is Working
I want to point out, there are things that still need to change yet there are positive aspects that have come out of this journey, which I am proud that I have accomplished them.
If it wasn’t for being accountable for my actions each and every month I would not have made it this far, it has been an experience that I won’t forget and something that I am likely to continue in the New Year. However, with all the learning I have done so far this year, those goals are more focused and achievable than I could ever have hoped to accomplish had I not decided to take on this journey.
I am still taking forward my learning with planning, this is something that still surprises me with the amount of learning that I need to do in this area.
Therefore, my journey is continuing on the right path, I am making progress and learning so much more about myself than I ever thought possible. What is important for me is to make these changes and to see the changes in me and the ability that I do have. I can take on these challenges and move forward through areas that before I might have self-sabotaged, just to stop me progressing with my dreams and goals. I didn’t think I was good enough, I am not letting that stop me anymore, my goals are my focus and I am at last succeeding in something that I want for me and that makes me proud of my journey so far.
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